My name is Shirley. I am a Chinese natural shemale. My girl

friends call me a t-girl or transsexual woman. I have two

natural feminine small breasts and a degenerated small penis.

When I was a child, my mother and I lived in Beijing, the

capital of China. My father seldom lived with us. Now I am

living in Hong Kong by myself. I can speak fluent Mandarin

(Putonghua) and Cantonese as well as some English. Although

my appearance looks like a man rather than a woman when I

clear off the feminine makeups on my face, I do not know

why my body looks like a woman more than a man. My breasts

are much bigger than a normal man. When I am wearing a man's

tight fit, my mammae protrude out so much that they look

nearly like a woman. I feel embarrassing in front of men. In

fact, I possess no vagina like a woman does. My body height

is 5ft. 5in.(165cm) and my weight is 128lb.(58Kg). My breasts

band is 35in.(89cm) and my chest band is 32in.(81cm). My waist

band is 31in.(78cm) and my buttocks band is 36in.(92cm). Usually

I like to wear a 36in.(92cm) brassiere with C-cups because I

like to have a more beautiful profile. My larynx is not

remarkable. My voice is somewhat in between of the two sexes.

I am mild and genteel. Neither I smoke cigarettes nor I

drink wines. When a female flirts with me, the turgidity of

my penis is small. It is too small for me to undergo copulation

with a female. I experienced ejaculations only when I was

wearing tradition Chinese female wears in severe bondage as

well as my mammae were being kneading hard or my penis was

being sucking continuously by females. It is very gloomy that

I have no real sex relations for many years because I actually

do not possess the capability of a man for normal copulation.

Physically, I do not possess strong muscles like a man. My

flesh and muscles are similar to a woman. My skin is pale

yellow in colour. It is slightly coarser than a woman but it

is much more delicate than a man. I have some thin scattered

short black hairs on my legs and in my arm-pits. The length of

my penis is not more than 3in.(7.5cm) and my right testis is

not well-developed. Unlike Thailand, It is very difficult for

a transsexual woman to be employed in Hong Kong. My financial

condition cannot afford me to proceed in the sex transformation

surgery. At present, I receive some financial supports from my

female friends. I often live with my female friends in their

apartments. My female friends are single office ladies. Many

of them feel much sympathy for me. They support me a lot. Some

treat me as a good companion in playing games because they like

to bind transsexual girls wearing Chinese qipao. They told me

that their passions would be unbridled and extremely exciting

when binding a girl with some male features, a transsexual

girl. They liked to bind a transsexual girl like me with my

arms and legs behind the back. Amazingly, they did not gain

the same feeling when they tied up normal females likewise.
 
After they had bound me, they swept over my sensitive organs

with their lips and groped about my whole body by their hands.
 
They kissed my ears, the two sides of my neck, breasts, palms,

feet and my penis. They groped my arm-pits, arms, legs, chest,

waist, back, buttocks, scrotum and anus. Their two most extreme

favours were kneading my mammae and sucking my penis because I

would scream continuously and struggled hard when I gained

fanciful sensations. They loved to view how I was struggling in

great pains with severe bondage. They told me it was extraordinary

exciting and they appreciated the game very much. It was also

unbelievable that I liked my female friends grasping my mammae

firmly and kneading them continuously too. The sensation was

fanciful and my passion could be initiated. I indulged in this

particular feeling very much. The sensation was extremely

wonderful. It could not be described in words and expressed

by symbols. It brought me along with simultaneous pains as

well as happiness, especially when my female friends kneading

my mammae hard and sweeping my nipples and areolae slightly and

alternatively. Many years ago, I came across a horrible experience

in a public place. I was insulted by several men of whom I had no

acquaintance with. They caught me and squeezed my arms and hands

at the back. Though they had not tied me up, they grasped my

breasts and kneaded my mammae rudely. At that time, my only

feeling was pain. I had no fanciful sensation at all. Those fanciful

sensations would appear only when my mammae were kneading by females.

What a horrible dream it was while my mammae were grasping by men !

However it may be, I do not mind bondages because I am feeble and

submissive and I like wearing Chinese qipao in bondage by girls.

It is a matter of everyday occurrence that I put on a periwig 

of long black hair and wearing Chinese qipao indoors because

I love elegance and I like the feeling of bondage while wearing

Chinese qipao. All Chinese qipaos and female ornaments are gifts

of my female friends. They ordered Chinese qipaos according to

my profile from a famous Hong Kong tailor. The Chinese qipaos

are very splendid and beautiful. My female friends comment

that my portrait is more elegant and slimer when I am wearing

a Chinese qipao. If I am wearing a pair of shoes with high

heels at the same time, the feminine meekness almost meets my

personal characters. Nowadays, it is still illegal for a born

male, with Hong Kong identity card marked as `MALE', wearing

female clothings, like a transsexual girl, walking in the

public, particularly in need of going to toilet. If `he' enters

a female toilet, `he' will be arrested and sentenced imprisoned

for 2 months because of committing an offence against the law.

In everyday life, I am quite puzzled, painful and helpless. In

case I have to go outdoors for shopping, I always wear a loose

man's T-shirt and a pair of trousers. I try my very best to

hide my femininity outdoors, particularly my mammae in front

of men. Although I wish I could be a hundred per cent genuine

female so that I can live like a woman both indoors and outdoors

normally, my female friends do not consent to my thoughts. They

spoke frankly to me that they were afraid of losing those

fantastic sentiments in binding a transsexual girl like me,

because those wonderful feelings did not appear when they were

binding a genuine female. They believe that those fantastic

sentiments would have vanished if I were a normal female. They

often advise me that the community in Hong Kong is mainly

Chinese. The marjority of Chinese are very conservative. They

are not so open-minded as Europeans and Americans. At present,

people in Hong Kong community do not accept transsexual girls !

 When I was a child, I lived like a girl. My mother told me

that, since I have been born, she dressed me as a girl because

she wished to have a daughter. She said that it was easier to

take care a little daughter wearing a dress than a little boy

wearing trousers. I knew nothing about sex at that time. I was

just wearing dresses and playing with girls in my childhood.

All my friends were girls. Later, I was told about gender.

Since then, I was obliged to wear as a boy no matter I was at

home, in schooling or going outside. I felt very painful. At

that time, when I was staying alone at home, I searched for

female clothings and ornaments to put on myself. Very comfortable,

I could be a `girl' again ! I dreamed to be a genuine girl ! 

 When I was a child, my mother brought me along to Guangzhou,

Guangdong province of China, to visit my father's elder sister.

One day in the morning, my elder cousin sister and several

younger girls gathered together in a mezzanine. They were

playing games. I wished to join them and asked my elder cousin

sister to let me in. My elder cousin sister told me that because

I was a boy, I was not qualified to play with them. If I really

wished to join, I had to be a girl or at least dressed like a

girl and disguised as a girl. At that time, I was very lonely

and I was very eager to play with the girls. I made my promised

without any hesitation, because I really liked dressing up as

a girl. Then she took out her small Chinese qipao, some female

wears and oranments. She helped me dressing up. After I had

played with the girls for a while, my elder cousin sister

declared that, from now on, she would act as a judge. Suddenly,

she sentenced me guilty and the punishment was bondage for ever.

She took out some ropes and ordered the other little girls to

help catching me up. My hands and feet were bound by ropes. My

chest and trunk were also tied up fast by her. This was my

first experience of bondage in Chinese qipao crossdressing.

 A few years later, my mother and I migrated to Macau. One day,

my mother brought me to visit her elder sister. My younger cousin

sister was a good friend of mine. When we were playing blindman's

buff in a guest bedroom, I discovered some ropes hidden under

a bed and I told my younger cousin sister about it secretly.

Amazingly, she explained that she liked bondage. She liked to

bind girls. She told me that if I were a girl, she would have

tied me up too. Very fantastic ! I whispered her that actually

I was a crossdresser since I had been born. I liked dressing

Chinese qipao when I was alone. I like bondage too. In her

favour, I was willing to be bound by her. So she brought me

a red gown, black corsets and underwear, bracelets, necklace,

long periwig and some hair ornaments. She helped adorning me

carefully. She told me that she would let me show out my

greatest feminine beauty before she tied me up. At that time,

I was nearly as tall as my younger cousin sister. After I had

dressed up those female wears, she first bound my hands on my

back tightly. Then, she tied up my feet with a rope. At last,

she bound around my chest and trunk severely. From that time,

I loved doing bondage with feminine partners so much.

 As I grow up, I like dressing Chinese female traditional

wears. I love doing bondage and playing SM with females. I

usually act as a slave in bondages. In sex, I have little

sexual desire and nearly nil sexual relation. Though I do not

possess the capability of a man in sex, I can be excited by

a female if she gropes about my body and flirts with me,

especially when I am dressing Chinese qipao and she ties me up

hard. I always wonder why I am possessing feminine breasts

since I have never taken in any female hormones. Psychologically,

I love female but reject male firmly because I have no feeling

of security when a man is nearby. I am afraid of raping by a

man. Am I a lesbian ?

 A few years ago, my mother told me that my father was dead in

a northern province of mainland China. I was in great sorrow.

At the same time, my mother told me a stunning secret about me.

She said that I was found to be a hermaphroditic baby when I

was born. That is, I was a natural shemale. When I was born, I

possessed both male and female reproductive organs. Though

some of my male reproductive organs including penis, scrotum

and testicles were degenerated, they were protrusive and

remarkable. The degenerated female reproductive organs

including labia, clitoris, vagina, uterus and ovary were

 distorted and hidden behind the male reproductive organs

on the right side in my abdomen. A team of doctors asked

my parents to select a sex for me in the future so that

they could operate a sex correction surgery for me. My mother

wished me to be a daughter, but my father preferred to have a

son. Finally, I have been undertaken a sex correction surgery

when I was a little child. In that age, I knew nothing about

it. In the operation, all my labia, clitoris, vagina, uterus

and ovary were all cut off. My parents did not wish to let

my relatives know that I was a born shemale. They told my

relatives that I was undergone a surgery of hernia instead

of a surgery of sex correction. For hernia, it is quite a

common small operation for a boy ! Dear me ! Why is it so

joking at me ? Is that why my body so feminine ? Is that why

my wish to be a genuine woman ? Is that why my thought like

a female ? Oh, I ought to be a female originally. It was my

father who wished to make me as a son only. Indeed, it was

a great sorrow to me. This stunning message struck me so hard

and I felt blue for many years.

 Your kind support is very important and precious to me. I

really wish to know your answer and ideas. Now, please do not

hesitate to send an e-mail to sm.ladyboy@yahoo.com.hk and tell

me. If you are a novelist, you may purchase my story and write

a full-length nonfiction novel. If you are a film producer,

you may adapt the novel for the screen to make a romantic adult

film. I am glad to hope that to become a reality one day.

If you are a female and you wish to be one of my close friends,

just send me an e-mail at sm.ladyboy@yahoo.com.hk . Thank you !



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